LOVE?? I NEVER MEANT IT AT ALL!!!

        
  Everyone knows the tragic love story of romeo and Juliet, how they loved each other with so much passion that they couldn't live without each other, the thought of  not being without each other forever was to much to handle.. Now that was true love, there was no hate or bad words spoken to one another they loved each other and that was just the bottom line.. I often wonder where is that love now a days, we as people throw around the word love like its a game we play... when in reality its the most strongest word you could ever say to someone.. (not saying everyone but most).. I watched for years as one of my closest friends bounce from one man to another all because they SAID they loved her.. and that's all she ever wanted was some to love her.. And unfortunately in ended in her taking her own life, and unlike Juliet she didn't have her romeo to follow her.. and love her.. maybe if she had shed still be here..

I look at this lady in the picture above, and it reminds me of her, a beautiful women, in a dark scary place, walking trying to find the light. I don't know maybe I'm still trying to find the light for he.. my heart is filled with hate because her romeo just picked up and left after she passed like they were never one.. how can someone that loves you with all there heart treat like shit push u to your limits.. and when you have been pushed to the limits of taking your own life.. how can he just pick up and move on without even thinking.. June 21st  i will be 2 yrs without my best friend my stepson will be with out his mother, all because of the word I love you..

So if your going to say it mean it with every being in your body..  Because those simple three words could change a persons life for the good or the bad.. I guess i still hold alot resentment after she passed, i feel  like ill never find closer, ill never feel better.. But life is to short to hate the people I feel are responsible for leaving us behind.. I can only dream of the day when i see her beautiful smile.. then maybe she can tell me why she let love control her scion to do what she did!!! so just always remember to love to the fullest because you never know if its going to be last time you ever see that person again..