As I sit here at 27 years old I ask myself, when are things going to get better for me. Every since I was little I dreamed of big things, I was always so nice and sweet I put other people in front of myself.. so far that hasn't gotten me anywhere... Lets start all the way from the beginning, my parents where never together, My dad was a drug addict who liked to beat the shit out of my mom, so growing up wasn't easy I watched my mom go from one asshole to another we moved so many times that I cant remember how many different schools i went to.. my mother struggled to raise me and my brothers.. so we has to move in with my grandmother, who was a alcoholic and roamed the streets.. one time at three or four she took me hitch hiking with her we got picked up by some guy and she brought him home with us.. and at three i was going to make them a sandwich, she threww the jelly jar at me and it shattered all over the floor and I cut my foot.. so we moved out to my moms friends house where I meant some of the best people in the world who i now call my aunt tt and my cousins.. my child hood felt normal.. besides my going to visit my dad through a jail cell every so often.. I went to live with my granny and papa my dads parents.. because my mother couldn't afford to take care of me.. which wasn't her fault she did what was best for me.. I loved my grandparent's the would spoil me rotten.. my papa was the best grandfather in the world, he was my father figure,God i miss him!!! That was on and off for awhile.. living with mom then back to living with my grandparent's.. I just wanted to stay in one place long enough to have a friend.. I never really got a childhood I was to busy helping my raise my brothers..even in my preteen years i would carry my little brother with me everywhere..And not to mention the neighbor hoods we lived in were not the best ones.. at 11 years old I was smoking cigs and had gotten my first tattoo by some gang banger who lived a couple of houses down.. and by 14 I was pregnant .. but through all the things I've been through because trust me I left out alot, I was still this person that would do anything for anyone.. just looking for some one to love me.. I want better for my children.. I want them to know how much they are loved, and how much they can do for themselves if they just try and never give up.. also to never let someone bring the evil out in you.. because if they can do that then they don't need to be in your life.. I let alot of people in my life that I shouldn't I shared alot of things with people that i shouldn't have.. Because in the end they can use that to hurt me.. but all that matters that today at my age I can finally say that I'm a strong hard ass women to go through everything I have been through at such a young age.. I'm still here fighting for everything I have.. So for the people who didn't stick around through my storms and wait for my sunshine, who cares they missed out on something special..
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