BEING A YOUNG MOTHER!!!!!

 

When I was little I dreamed of being something or someone important.... I wanted a big family to be married and have the best life for myself. Well lets just say I got everything I wanted, Just alittle early then I expected. When I  was 14 years old I thought I knew everything and I was all grown up, I helped my mother raise my two brothers I cooked cleaned, well some cleaning!!! LOL.. And I loved the boys.. I met this guy who would change my life forever, He was cute, had a car a job and I fell deeply in love with him.. A couple of months later I was pergo at 14 what the hell was I thinking, On march 23,1999 I became the mother of a beautiful little girl at only 15 years old.. And boy was I scared, And of course things didn't work out with her father and I.. But we are still friends and know that taking care of our daughter is the most important thing..

  Being a young mom was hard, I lost alot of my friends and my time to just be a teenager, I dropped out of school so I could be there for her every second, and one that has a baby knows about the late night feedings I was exhausted and finally gave up on school.. My mother would get up with her sometimes so I could sleep alittle it just wasn't enough, I never thought It would this hard!!!

  A few years later I met a guy who I fell in love with from the minute I saw him. We are now married with four kids and I have a stepson, making the grand total of six children all two years a part.. except for the two oldest they are 6 months apart. And I'm only 26 years old!!! It gets so hard sometimes I want to just run away, I would give anything for just a hour to myself to breath.. All i want is to be a good mother, but sometimes I feel like I'm gonna break at any moment, between taking care of the two little ones during the day, there is a tone more that follows, cleaning cooking, homework  bath time etc!!!  Do you how many times I clean the kitchen? five times a day, that's breakfast, lunch, snack time, dinner, and before I go to bed..

      

But at the end of the day when I look around I see all that I have, and that I wouldn't change it for the world. And I wanted to be something or be someone important... I'm not a doctor or a lawyer!!!! I'm a mother of six wonderful beautiful children that love me and need me. To me that is being someone important and the most important job Ill ever have...So ask me if I could go back and change it would I????? NOPE... I love being me the person I was meant to be..  All the friends I lost along the way are missing out on a great person!!! having kids didn't change me, I'm still just me and loving every second of it..