I want to start out by saying a best friend can be anybody, somebody you'll never expect to walk in your life and change it forever.. well thats what happened to me she happened to be my husbands ex and my stepsons mother. We met 10 years ago and dont get me wrong we fought like cats and dogs, but at the end of the day we knew we had each other backs no matter what. She was an amazing person, strong independent, loving caring, and the mother of three small wonderful children who she loved deeply. We were one big family. But like alot of people she was dealing with alot of stress,bills,men,and a additcion to alcohol, and because of her anxstieyshe took pills. Which didnt make things better, none of this changed the person she was, she handled herself very well.. A few years back she came home to find her dad who was living with her at the time he had hung himself in the garage.. After that thing went down hill for her, and a few years later she did the samething leaving behind everything she worked so hard for in life, If you asked me ten years ago if I saw it coming??? I would of said no with out a doubt. Sometimes I blame myself I could of been more in her life asked questions let her know I loved her and she so important to me and my family.. now not only am copeing myself Im tring to help her 12 yr old son too.. and her other two babies she has left.. So to anybody who has those thoughts and trust me well all do at some point.. Just remember you are loved and people will miss you everyday that your gone, they will hurt they will cry, they will wonder.. nothing is worth your life!!! there are so many people to talk to. my bestfreind is longer here to see her kids grow up, To see how much they look like her, there smile, kiss them hug them..I can longer talk to her when im sad, go out with her, spend the holidays with her,In my eyes she is my purple butterfly angel.. and she follows me in my heart and thoughts, dreams and prayers.. She is the angel I use to know!!
